I don't know if I should mention this.
I'm just too afraid that it just might happen and affect me, emotionally.
Well, basically I really think I can't be a minute away from Fi.
He's just the one who gives me the unique kind of warmth and comfort that no one can ever give me, and also, the one that seems to understand my character/feelings(of most times though) the best. Ok, maybe if you count aiyeeen out. He is like a best friend to me, whom i simply love spending time with despite any fights/arguements/misunderstanding we faced.Well, I don't know, I think I've spent alot of time with him, shared alot of my life with him too over the past 2 years, which I'm actually glad that i did, cause we definitely had learnt gazillion things about each other. It just feels so nice, totally beyond words to describe the moments with him. Like, seriously.
I just love how we engage into each others' life. And how we simply cleared misunderstandings and compromise. What should I say, I believe he is one of the most patient being alive in my life!
You see, when I'm not with him physically, I'm constantly thinking about his well-beings and such; too curious of his every movement. This simply results me to calling him to hear and check him out. Sometimes too, others might think I'm just so over-protective of him, and draws out boundaries for his own life, which I never intended to, but sometimes, things just may get out of hand that I think as a girlfriend, I should do things that would ensure our strong bonding, like always.
Especially during holidays, I'd tend to spend my life with him, which sometimes made me think about how I'd be when school reopens and such. Would i face the nasty sudden withdrawals?? :'( It's just too obvious ain't it, cause I've faced it since sec 3. It's that inevitable.
Moreover, I've read entries in blogs about their guys leaving/left for NS, just like sha's. It's rather heart-wrenching to the fact that Fi'll be leaving too next year. (Yes, I know, it's not like it's tomorrow.But, feel me, pls.) Well, definitely I'd be more attached to him by the days! Which means, I'd be missing him even more when he's off for NS! *sigh* However, like what other's would say, 'you'd get used to it.' Hmmm.. InsyAllah.
In short, I really do love fi. And, I'm oh-so lost without him by my side. :'(
Can someone just keep us together alone in our own world??
that boi.
Love, Suuu. 9:41:00 pm